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The start of an adventure....

Im at a place in my life where Im trying to find my place. Ive had great adventures and not so great experiences. Ive been stubborn and challenging to deal with and as I learn Gods will for his people and the roles of wives and mothers, my whole heart and life have transformed. Ive recently read a book about becoming a proverbs 31 woman and the term "Martha 31" was formed from a modern day Martha Stewart. I have been on a quest to serve and support my husband and be a role model for my family while changing the world and working, running a farm and so on. I have triumph days and many days where I just want to throw in the towel. I thought it would be interesting to write and share my experiences with others out there maybe looking for comfort in knowing that I am human and we all have room to learn and grow.

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