As I spent the last few days in Africa, I've been trying to figure out my purpose here. The churches turned out to be steel which Im unfamiliar with, so I've gone with the women to do what I thought was feedings and turned into home visits (my least favorite part of every trip). I havent been able to pray "on cue". I feel like I need to be led by the spirit. This has NEVER gone well with church groups as they have always tried to force this kind of ministry on me and my answer has always been "NO"! I am very intimate with God in my own way, I don't need someone telling me who, what or when I have to pray. I'm not scared or fearful, I just have a more intimate relationship with God when it comes to prayer. For starters, I speak in tongues, exactly how is our translator supposed to convey that in places that are full of witchcraft. If someone came to my house and started praying for me all crazy, I would not be coming to God...I would push God further
Searching for Gods will, desire and plan for me as Im changing my heart, attitudes, desires and flesh into an intimate relationship with Christ and his will.....but the process from cold to warm to hot has been challenging. Learn from my experiences and know that you are not alone in this adventure we call "life".