The Root

My spirit is so torn as the holiday season begins and the heaviness of the school shooting of those innocent babies. Grief stricken and heart broken might be better words. Everywhere I look the Christmas season has just become all about money and gifts, everywhere I go people ask me if Im ready for Christmas and have all my shopping done....NO! Ready for what? If I had Christmas the way I want to have Christmas, I would be making a birthday cake for Jesus, maybe some balloons spending the day talking and celebrating him and who he is, after all it HIS birthday and he came to save us in this EVIL world. This act of violence has just caused so much controversy and it all stems from the blame game. We want to know why and point fingers, someone to blame. The real accountability is with us and the way we are living as a country as a whole and to be honest, we will see more of these tragedies if we dont get serious with GOD, not our laws. This didnt happen because God isnt in our schools....those children wouldnt have been to blame for that and they did not die in vain for God to make an example. It could have been another mall or movie theater and it shows that God is needed everywhere in our country...a school was not just singled out. I do believe these recurrences will get worse and are warning signs of the spiritual battle taking place and we already know that things will get worse. Teachers carrying guns in schools? They do that oversees and it tells me we are preparing for battle and war and majority of us are too spoiled to understand what is to come. Why limit teachers? If we are going to "protect" ourselves...wouldnt we all have guns? What happens when a teacher carrying a gun goes crazy and shoots students? Do you not think it will happen? Demons are evil....you dont believe me? Why are teachers molesting kids? Thats evil in our schools, what about sex and drugs, trafficking, greed? Im starting to believe that we cover up demon possessed with the term mental illness. What about the Christian woman that drowned her 5 kids? I think she had demons in her spirit and eventually they overtook her. No person in their right mind would do these acts of violence, they are from the Devil. We are living in spiritual warfare and the bible tells us things will get worse in the end times. We have all battled our own demons....but some people cant snap out of the voices and thoughts that drown them and either talk themselves out of help or hide. This is serious! I have never understood why it takes a tragedy or disaster of this nature to bring people together and pray. Shouldnt we be doing that to "protect" and prevent rather than questioning, asking why and pointing fingers after the fact? Are security guards and metal detectors really going to stop anything? Why not enhance counseling and really focus on character and behavior? It starts at home parents. There have been other tragedies that dont include guns, so I really hate that people are using this as a gun control issue instead of a spiritual issue. Evil in the form of deception and mind games has been around since Adam and Eve....the devil used the same tactics to persuade Eve to eat the apple. Cain and Abel? Almost every other character in the bible has been deceived by evil spirits some fell into and some didnt, some did and then came back to God, some didnt. They all fell into a trap, this is nothing new but it WILL get worse if its not acknowledged and handled with great care and respect. I am not a political person and definitely not any kind of professional, but my heart says....Wake up people, you have been warned. Im not this bold of a person and definitely dont deserve what I will get when people start tearing what is on my heart apart.  I asked God to work through me and allow me to use his words for his glory. This is not "me", but Im owning up to the heaviness and burden on my heart to go into my uncomfort zone.

After blog written someone sent this to me it's just beautiful and sums it all up:


Twas' 11 days before Christmas, around 9:38
when 20 beautiful children stormed through heaven's gate.

Their smiles were contagious, their laughter filled the air.
They could hardly believe all the beauty they saw there.
They were filled with such joy, they didn't know what to say.
They remembered nothing of what had happened earlier that day.

"Where are we?" asked a little girl, as quiet as a mouse.
"This is heaven." declared a small boy. "We're spending Christmas at God's house."

When what to their wondering eyes did appear,
but Jesus, their savior, the children gathered near.
He looked at them and smiled, and they smiled just the same.
Then He opened His arms and He called them by name.

And in that moment was joy, that only heaven can bring,
those children all flew into the arms of their King
And as they lingered in the warmth of His embrace,
one small girl turned and looked at Jesus' face.
And as if He could read all the questions she had
He gently whispered to her, "I'll take care of mom and dad."

Then He looked down on earth, the world far below
He saw all of the hurt, the sorrow, and woe
Then He closed His eyes and He outstretched His hand,
"Let My power and presence re-enter this land!"
"May this country be delivered from the hands of fools"
"I'm taking back my nation. I'm taking back my schools!"

Then He and the children stood up without a sound.
"Come now my children, let me show you around."
Excitement filled the space, some skipped and some ran.
all displaying enthusiasm that only a small child can.
and i heard Him proclaim as He walked out of sight,
"In the midst of this darkness, I AM STILL THE LIGHT."