I cant believe its been three years since Ive taken the time to unwind my crazy mind. So much has happened, most Im not proud of but hey...its life. My mind, ok fine...my heart has been turning lately. Where has my joy gone? Why do I find myself fearful of being me? Where did I go? Who am I? How did I get here? How do you go from feeling like your on top of the world to the lowest pit of just getting by? Fake it till you make sounds really good right now, but it bothers me as to why I feel that I have to fake it? Why cant I just be me? Its hard to feel like yourself when everyone is questioning your every move, it really just makes you shut down as if you cant do anything right and you cant make anyone happy, but then I go through the questions of why I feel like I need to make anyone happy....not my job. Why do we care so much about what others think? I feel like at one time I did a pretty great job of opening up and being candid with everyone only to hear people thought I was perf
Searching for Gods will, desire and plan for me as Im changing my heart, attitudes, desires and flesh into an intimate relationship with Christ and his will.....but the process from cold to warm to hot has been challenging. Learn from my experiences and know that you are not alone in this adventure we call "life".