I'm ashamed and a bit embarrassed to even admit this after being a Christian 20 years (2 years being a Christ follower).....that there have been many times I questioned if God is real. The fact is I learned that we follow Jesus because he was innocent/pure and died for our sins, but the truth is innocent people die for other people all the time. The truth is there are people in the ministry that die for their religion and for worshiping God all the time and we don't worship them. It's not all the time I feel this way but it has crossed my mind several times throughout the years. I question God usually in times of tragedy when innocent lives are lost and it seems more and more recently (lives lost, not questioning God). My family has been watching "The Bible" series and I'm seeing the bible differently. The fighting, wars and innocent life lost a lot over greed. I love watching Gods favor and the miracles, but am distraught by the violence. I can't help
Searching for Gods will, desire and plan for me as Im changing my heart, attitudes, desires and flesh into an intimate relationship with Christ and his will.....but the process from cold to warm to hot has been challenging. Learn from my experiences and know that you are not alone in this adventure we call "life".