On the search to seeking Gods will

I cant even begin to tell you how busy I have been the last two weeks with tenants taking off with no rent and leaving me with a trashed houses. For as far back as I can remember, this is by far the worst financial hit I have experienced in at least ten years personally. Its different when you property manage and play with other peoples money than when its your own....eeeekkkk!!! On the flip side, working on houses gives me time with God and really helps give me clarity. I think its Gods way of silencing the world around me and puts me in a place where its just the two of us so he can teach me to where I can listen and pay attention without distraction, so its bitter sweet and as of yet.....my family hasnt skipped a meal (close calls, but no meals missed so far). I really feel my heart pulling in a specific direction and I put this in Gods hands that the words come out right because I know so many are affected by this, I just hope its presented in a way that glorifies God and that yo